Ma... How do I tell you

The stories in my head

The endless threads

That weave me in it

Like a coccoon

I don't wish to leave

These webs that converge

All held at the seams

Starting and ending

From my heart

Ma.. I don't blame you

For not knowing

I was a different being

Far from the likes

Of what you knew

It wasnt your fault

To not see the monstrosity

Strapped on my back

Neither did I know, like you

That I was a being

Made for a reason

Ma.. it hurts that I cannot

Cannot use them wings

Nor do I know

How to hold myself up

It hurts as they get battered

Torn and bloodied

My feathers broken

Colours drained

And they weigh me down

That I cannot move

Ma.. I am scared

Of what I am

Of what I could be

And of what I will end up being

I'm scared I might fail, Fail you

I don't see myself

When I look at me

My reflection is distorted

You call me angel

But all I see is a demon

Ma.. promise me

That you won't hate my wings

That you won't banish me

For not growing up the way you knew

Promise me trust and faith

Cause I fail to see them myself

Promise me you won't let go

For if you do, All I can do is fall

Into the deepest darkest abyss

I call my hell.